by Marissa Binetti
Drug abuse is a common and unsung obstacle college students face. At first, it’s a choice to do drugs, but eventually it becomes a habit. Before you know it, drug use becomes a lifestyle. Users feel the need to be in a different state of mind to have a good time. Often, users are dissatisfied with their lives, and use drugs to escape living in the moment. Drugs offer the luxury of escaping reality and entering your own world. This is a classic case of something that is too good to be true. Sooner or later, life catches up with the user and bitch slaps them in the face. Jail time, a close call with an OD or even death are just some of the consequences life has to offer a user who decided to believe they were invincible. Drug use will catch up with you at some point, but it’s never too late to get your shit together and run.
“I never thought it would be a problem…”
I’m 19 years old and as of November 18th, 2013, I am one year drug-free. This is a bitter-sweet accomplishment. Sadly, this year of sobriety is the longest I have gone without drugs since I was 11 years old. I grew up with drugs all around me. Whether it was heroin, prescriptions or marijuana, I could walk into any room of my grandparents’ house and have some kind of drug at my disposal.
My uncle taught me how to use drugs when I was about seven years old. When I was 11, I smoked marijuana for the first time. Around the age of 15, my uncle and I snorted heroin together. I always resented him for exposing me to such dangerous substances when I was so young, but he really did not know any better. Drugs were the reason for his existence–it was his lifestyle. On several occasions, paramedics have resuscitated him from the brink of death after a close call with heroin or pills. Finally, he went too far and completely over dosed on that shit.
“But shit happens…”
When I turned 18, I handed in my senior pictures for a mug shot at the Livingston county jail. I found myself serving time there after a night of being fucked up on Xanax and pot. I walked out of jail a couple weeks later with four felonies and two misdemeanors. Doing drugs fucked up my life because I had to trade in my freedom. I can’t do anything around this county without a corrections officer on my ass. I can’t leave the state and I can’t smoke marijuana without consequence anymore. I’m not proud of how my life has turned out by any means, but I am doing everything I can to make sure I never wonder down that path again. I am determined to make a better future for myself.
I spoke to some of my classmates and friends at Eastern about their opinions regarding drug use and found out what kind of shit has happened to them as a result of drug use.
Q: How have drugs affected your life?
A: HAHA! How hasn’t it? Went to jail and got kicked out of Eastern. Now I’m on probation and can’t do shit.
Q: How did you end up in jail?
A: Well Xanax got me fucked up and decided it was a novel idea to go car hopping, and smoking the Mary J definitely didn’t help my situation.
Q: Do you plan on ditching drugs completely when you are off probation?
A: Unfortunately no, I just hope I’m smarter and don’t get caught. Actually, I take that back, I’ll stop the pill popping once I can light up a bowl again.
Q: What is the worst mistake you have made involving a drug?
A: Fuck, I have been arrested twice for controlled substances. I was caught with heroin freshman year of college and spent two months in jail.
Q: Have you stayed away from heroin since then or have you been using?
A: I’m not a habitual user anymore but since opiates are the only drugs that get out of your system in no time I still use sometime to get by while drug testing. But I started trading out heroin for narcos so I’m not that fucked up all the time.
Q: do you believe you are headed down a good path for a good future?
A: HAHA hell no! But what are ya gonna do? I’m young and just doing whatever to have a good time. I can stop whenever but I don’t want to, I’m sure I’ll get my shit together soon but these are my good years and it’s better to fuck stuff up while you’re young than to do it when old. Then you really have a problem.
Q: How often do you do drugs?
A: Uhhh, I smoke weed like once a week or maybe twice, but I refuse to do any of that shit that makes you trip really hard. I’m mainly content just drinking my wine and vodka!
Q: Has smoking marijuana ever got you into trouble?
A: Well, other than my parents bitching at me for it, not really. But I was driving around with my friend–well she was driving–and the cops pulled us over and she got a possession charge and I just had to go home.
Q: Do you think weed is the “gateway” to other drugs?
A: No, because if you aren’t happy with just weed then I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with you. If I had to do another drug just to get the same high as I did with weed, then I would just have to stop doing everything all together because the last thing I want in life is to be addicted to some nasty ass drug… other than weed. Weed is good.
Q: How do you feel about drugs?
A: They are phenomenal! Marijuana especially. [I’m] not really into all the hallucinating shit that’s out there, but I’ll try anything at least once.
Q: Why do you feel the need to try everything?
A: Well just to see what’s out there, I guess. I’m young so why not? It’s good to know what certain drugs can do to you and even better to know which ones are the good ones to fuck you up.
Q: Ever fear you will become addicted?
A: Not at all, I can stop whenever I want to.
Q: Do you plan on having this mindset about drugs for the rest of your life?
A: I mean, maybe one day I’ll grow up and get my shit together… I’ll change my mind when it’s necessary. But for now I’m young and don’t give a fuck!